Of Greater Worth than Gold – M. Laycock

I recently listened to a preacher talk
about a time in his life when he suffered from depression and anxiety. He
mentioned some of the great preachers of the past, like Charles Spurgeon, who
suffered in the same way. He talked about the struggle to preach under that
burden and how he so often felt like a hypocrite in the pulpit. But he kept
doing it because, though he didn’t understand why and certainly didn’t feel
worthy, he knew that God wanted him to do it. He talked about those moments
when suddenly you know that God is speaking, directing, guiding, you know those
moments are a gift and even though you don’t feel worthy of it, you are
It made me think of a time I walked along
the north shore of Lake Huron with my brother, looking for pieces of driftwood
that he could carve. I picked up what I thought would be a great find – it was
a short piece of two by four that looked as though it had just come off the
planer. It didn’t look like it had been in the water very long. But my brother
rejected it and as we walked he taught me what to look for. “I need the
pieces that are scarred,” he said. “Burnt is even better. It’s the scars
and discoloration that give the finished piece character and beauty when you
carve the wood. Look for the pieces that aren’t perfect.”
We’ve all heard that expression, “God
uses cracked pots,” and we can all be thankful that it’s true. God uses
our flaws and failings to show a needy world that He is in the business of
restoration and recovery. He cuts through the scars and charred places to the
soul that is being refined. He used the pain of that preacher, even as he was
in the midst of a dark time, to teach and lead and even heal his congregation.
He uses those of us who write in the same
We have probably all had times when life
got messy and complicated and almost too hard to endure. We’ve had times of
doubt and confusion and perhaps even times when we were too angry with God to do
anything for Him. Those times aren’t easy and they will seem as though all
creativity and sensitivity have been pressed out of us. But it is these very
times that result in deep roots that are able to reach to the nourishment that
is buried and draw it up into our souls where it is useful and able to be
passed on.
Are you going through a tough time? Know
that God is at work. Know that the result will be a blessing to you and to
those whom God wants to reach through you. Hold onto the goodness of God and be
“These have come so that your faith,
of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire, may be
proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is
revealed” (1 Peter 1:7). 
Marcia Lee Laycock writes from central Alberta
Canada where she is a pastor’s wife and mother of three adult daughters. She
was the winner of The Best New Canadian Christian Author Award for her novel,
One Smooth Stone and also has two devotional books in print. Her work has been
endorsed by Sigmund Brouwer, Janette Oke, Phil Callaway and Mark Buchanan. Marcia’s
second novel, A Tumbled Stone has just been released. Abundant Rain, an ebook
devotional for writers can be downloaded here.
Visit Marcia’s website