By Marcia Lee Laycock
“Why don’t you ever have time for me?”
heart stopped and I turned to my nine-year old daughter as she burst
into tears. I gathered her in my arms and we talked. She had needed me
when she came home from school that day, but I was glued to the computer
screen, and had only given her a vague “uhuh” when she started to tell
me what was on her heart.
A short time after that, a man stood
up in a congregation and said, “What you are doing is good but your
obsession with it is not.” I knew immediately God was speaking to me. I
knew my writing had become an idol in my life. When I needed comfort, I
wrote. When I was afraid, I wrote. When I was angry, I wrote. I went to
my writing instead of my God.
So I prayed and God answered.
“Stop writing fiction.” I didn’t like that answer and I argued with Him
about it. But eventually I gave in but I asked the Lord for one thing –
“Please, please take away the stories that continually flow through my
head.” I feared I would go mad if they continued and I was not able to
write them down. He answered that prayer. For over two years. No story ideas, no scenes, no characters came to mind. I continued to write devotionals and articles for a local newspaper, but no fiction.
Then one Sunday morning, after the service, I chatted
with a woman about abortion. She asked, “Can you imagine what it would
be like for someone to discover that his mother had tried to abort him?”
I did imagine. A character began to take shape in my mind so vividly I
knew God had released me to write his story. I prayed and then I wrote.
That novel, One Smooth Stone, won the Best New Canadian Christian Author
Award. And I wept, not just because of the award, but because of what
God had taught me.
He taught me that if I am obedient to Him He
will bless me in ways I could never have imagined. He taught me that a
strong “no” may seem harsh but will always be given with loving intent.
He taught me that He intends “to prosper (me) and not to harm (me)… to
give (me) a hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11).
of fasting from fiction changed me and changed my work. It was, in a
way, a time in the wilderness that stripped away what was not good and
left a clearer, truer path. The withering away of what was dead left room for the new and necessary growth.
“Stop writing fiction” was not what I wanted to hear, but it was God’s best plan.
Alberta Canada where she is a pastor’s wife and mother of three adult
daughters. She was the winner of The Best New Canadian Christian Author Award
for her novel, One Smooth Stone. The sequel, A Tumbled Stone was short listed
in The Word Awards. Marcia also has four devotional books in print and has
contributed to several anthologies. Her work has been endorsed by Sigmund
Brouwer, Janette Oke, Phil Callaway and Mark Buchanan.
Rain, an ebook devotional for writers can be downloaded on Smashwords
or on Amazon.
It is also now available in Journal
format on Amazon.
most recent release is Celebrate
This Day, a devotional book for special
occasions like Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Thanksgiving.
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