What Frightens You?

by Alton Gansky
Outside
my office window
, a mourning dove and her mate have set up housekeeping. We
have a gate that leads to our front door. On each side of the metal gate are
two four-foot high pony walls, each with a ledge ideal for the large pots we
use for ornamental flowers. They look nice and provide a touch of color.
Apparently Mr. and Mrs. Mourning Dove thought so to. They moved in. (No word on
rent yet.) Each day I can look out my window and see a little, gray bird-head
peeking over the edge of the large pot. The birds are dedicated and does the
job she was created to do. Only when frighten does she fly off, but she always
returns.
Just
now the yard care team showed up. They do great work. We have a stellar lawn
but it’s no thanks to me. Good as they are, they are a noisy lot. They run a
gas weed whacker, a mower first used during the Kennedy administration, and a
leaf-blower that could knock over a Volkswagen Beetle. The groundkeepers work
fast and are so focused on what they’re doing they seldom notice anything else.
I
worried for the mother-to-be bird in her new home of collected straw. I could
do nothing but watch as the storm of noise surrounded her. She just watched. I
was proud of her.
Then my
wife came home with her niece. We thought it would be nice to show off our
feathered-tenants. Quietly, slowly, we moved to the same area where the guy
with the leaf-blower had been. 
The bird took one look at me and flew off.
Sigh.
There
might be a reason for the sudden flight. Before I knew the birds had moved in,
I watered the plants in the pot—and the bird, and the nest. Did you know a
bird’s nest can float? Bird was fine. Nest was fine. I was a little worse for
wear.
Often
when I speak at writer’s conferences I tell the story of my greatest fear. A
dream really. In my dream I am an old man, frail, thin, barely able to draw
breath. A white sheet covers my body. I’m viewing my deathbed. Old me motions
to come closer. I do and I listen as my dying self says, “I wish . . . I wish I
had tried . . .” I die before I can finish.
Yes,
that may indicate a sick mind, but it reminds me that fear can keep us from
doing something worthwhile, maybe even something great. What did I wish I had
tried? What kept me from trying it? What frightened me away? I’ll never know, but
I got the message. Those who don’t try have a 100% chance of failure.
Mrs. Mourning
Dove taught me to return to what I was meant to do, noisy mowers and a crazy,
unaware man with a pitcher of water not withstanding.
One of
my favorite historical characters is Teddy Roosevelt. While in Paris, France,
He delivered a speech titled, “Citizenship in a Republic” (April 23, 1910):
“It is not the critic who counts, not the man who
points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have
done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose
face is marred by the dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again, because there is no
effort without error or shortcoming; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great
devotions and spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and
who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly; so that his
place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory
or defeat.”
Getting
in the arena is scary. Staying in the arena is even more frightening. We might
fail. Our work might not measure up. Like weeds, critics pop up everywhere.
Still there is something about being marred by dust and sweat and blood, to be
valiant and to, if we fail, fail greatly.

So
what frightens you from your nest? Do you know the way back to the nest?
Alton Gansky latest work, The Girl, is the number four novella in the Harbinger series and written with Bill Myers, Frank Peretti, Angela Hunt. It releases in May 2015. He is also the director of the Blue Ridge Mountains Christian Writers Conference held each year in North Carolina, and the host of Writer’s Talk.